It’s been seasons since I last posted. The simple fact that I can say that would have made 2013 Me really happy. 2013 Me couldn’t even imagine getting to where I am today. I haven’t written because I haven’t need to. I don’t think about my hips all the time anymore. Most of the time I don’t think about them at all. They no longer rule my life, activities, thoughts and I am no longer in chronic pain. I guess what I’m saying is that, cross my fingers and knock on wood, I’m better!
Sure, better is relative. I am so much better than I was a year ago when I was being primed for the possibility of a hip replacement because of the persistent and exhausting pain. I am better than I was after each of my four surgeries. I can sit cross-legged on the floor and I am back to flying trapeze, aerial silks, the gym – everything but running (but I think I’ll get there). No – I’m not better than I was before all of this started. I do still have some pain, mostly aches if I sit too long or push myself too hard but at this point, who cares? I sure as hell don’t.
To my surprise I was told that I don’t need to come back for three years, and then only if I want to. We agreed that I’ll probably need a hip replacement (or two) sometime down the line but for now, I’m A-OK. In fact, my x-ray weirdly looks like I never had a single surgery. It took me twice as long as to heal as normal so yea, it was crazy how long it took – like molasses on a 10 degree incline slow – but I am pretty much there. I also know that Dr. Sink and everyone at HSS will be there if my hips falter, my stand-by support system.
So as of now, the blog part of this site, as it is, is on indefinite hiatus. I’ve decided that I am going to maintain and improve the site so that people who are searching for information have a resource. I still get between 50-100 hits a day, so clearly there are people out there who are looking for information and I’d like to help them.
For most of you it’s “until we meet again.” Thank you all, for the kindness you have shown me. I was not alone through this – you were with me, reading along, and I am genuinely grateful.